Satan is a fag...

I know it's kind of gay to write about the Devil. I have this feeling though... The feeling that I'll want to know what happened later. Even if nothing happens later. I'll be better off knowing what I was thinking, am thinking now. Again, I may not becuase It's a stupid idea really, nobody believes that Satan is for real. Although those dudes in Sweden and Norway - man, that shit is HARDCORE, burning down churches and shit (you know what I'm talking about?). That takes some fucking distemper. Seriously fucked up. You have to envy them in a way, in their complete dedication to the cause.


I don't really believe in Satan or the devil, or god for that matter, but I do believe in evil. And goodness, being good. There has to be some retribution somehow, somewhere - know what I mean? At the moment though, I'm a nihilist (in the most Russian sense of the word). I recently read that book by Camus - "the Stranger" - the one that Robert Smith sings about and President Bush was reading. Pretty good book. He was feeling it too. Nothing leads to nothing. Something leads to nothing. Everything leads to nothing. We are all just quivering bags of skin that hold together a bunch of different cuts of meat that trade chemical secretions. That may not be the most spiritually comforting notion but at least your expectations aren't set too high. Who knows, maybe there is a big fat baby jesus up in the sky ready to hang out with you when you're dead. Maybe there is karma, which would jibe with evil/goodness thing. But, in the end, I doubt it...

You want evidence? Look at Mr. Butch... Could you find a guy with better karma? I doubt it, and look what happened to him.

Anyway tomorrow I'll get more into Devil stuff. That's what I wanted to write about tonight, but I guess I got kind of sidetracked. I'll do it soon though.